you'll always be my thunder

I missed posting on here!
Rainflower is: thinking about all the changes that have happened! Driver's Ed is over, and for all of you who haven't been keeping up, no Driver's Ed=no Thunder =[ which is sad. Yeah. So if I'm being a bitch at school, I guess you guys'll know why...hugs would be appreciated=]

I'm experimenting with layout and stuff...I've added icons on the left and the content will be kinda different...? Someone told me that I should start an "advice column" type thing on here where people can anonymously post their problems and get responses from me. idk. If you want to, go ahead, if you think it's dumb then...whatever. I don't have much news because honestly...I don't remember =]

NEWS
***Ponytail: good news, she is wearing a bra again! Bad news, she does not understand the concept of clean hair. We'll work on this, but I'm glad she made progress! Girl power...?
***I heard some rather disturbing things about me and...let's call him Gum. I mean, just because we have to sit next to each other in one class and we happened to sneeze at the same time does NOT make us soulmates! I don't even like him! He's a weirdo in the worst way! Besides...yaknoww=[
***There were some pretty great shots of Bubbles&Sand from a weekend party<3 smile="]">

***Tramp, you're so fake. The guys see you doing your self-called "cute walk" down the hallways but they don't stop to look...because you're always frowning or extremely pissed at a bunch of people...what can we do to make you change?
***Swing has the creepiest girls in the history of...girls..."going after" her guy. Yeahh umm...if you've seen what they define as "going after" him, you'd be scared too.

***I don't really know what happened between Sweater and Blue...but Flower was definitely ALL OVER SWEATER while they walked to lunch TOGETHER. close. really close. Either Flower is a skank or Sweater is a pimp...?
***Lemon has a crush on cute-boy-from-Logue aka Helmet.
***Hawaii&Note? Where'd they go? Last spotted...no where...
***Shuffle needs a therapist.
***Bread was flirting in the EXTREME today with Monster! She had the whole laughing 'cutely', arm touching, hair stroking, and lip biting thing going...will this work though?
***Ice has a new boyfriend! And this one's a good match for her...they're both tall and extremely smart! Awww.
***(friends: this is what i told you to read in the facebook message i just sent...)I don't even know whether I'm still friends with Carpet anymore. I see her sometimes, and we say "hi" to each other, but we never talk outside of that, and I'm not even in her top friends on Facebook but all of my other friends are...can someone txt me with what's going on? Because I'm planning something and I don't know whether I should let her in it or not. I guess we're just not that close anymore...? idk. I don't want to have her let in on all my secrets if we dont really know each other anymore...

RAINFLOWER
***I found out I could tie a cherry stem with my tongue...what can I say? I've had practice, if you know what I mean=P JKAYY
***My friend from chem's friend from elementary school's friend's best friend's sister is dating NICK JONAS ASFNLEJWGBGLIRWGBA 6 DEGREES OF SEPARATION AGH
***Current favorite song: Thunder by Boys Like Girls. Not just because of that...I've liked this band forever and it's just a really great song. You should download it...or give me your email and I'll send it to you. Here's some of the lyrics:

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

***FYI posting "anonymous" hate comments doesn't mean you're cool, it means you're too scared to say it to my face. I know who you are. Stop it.

QUOTES [from everywhere!]

could've sworn i saw you smile at me
standing in the pouring rain

& I hope the weather holds,
but you don't need the sun to make you shine

Maybe our hearts were just next in line,
& maybe everything breaks sometimes.

when you're down
i may not be able to pick you up
but i promise i'll be laying
down right beside you

There's a big world out there.
Bigger than prom,
bigger than high school,
and it won't matter if you were the prom queen
or the quarterback of the football team
or the biggest nerd.
Find out who you are
and try not to be afraid of it.

run in the rain to get wet, call a friend just
cause you care, smile just cause you
can, & laugh just to make people stare.

if it's cold outside,
show the world the warmth of your smile

she can be young, she can be dumb,
but she has a heart.

I've been hit where it hurts.
Sure guys have balls, but girls have hearts.

Someone once said:
Even though your heart is on the left, it's always right <3

Comments would be greattt=]
(I'll only update again if I get enough comments!)
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rainflower<3

i'm all over you, i'm not over you

Rainflower is: tired beyond belief!!! AP US History projects=death. I stayed up really late last night doing it...not that it took that long but because I got home super late and I had a bunch of other homework/obligations. So that's why there wasn't an update yesterday.
I changed my mind about Driver's Ed. No matter how great it is during break time, class is so BORING. And I fell asleep today when he was talking=D My teacher did mention a girlfriend today so the gay hypothesis just...died.

-Stuff from today-
***Disregard anything previously said about Shark! I found out that my sources were wrong and there was nothing romantic there!
***Strawberry decided to leave Ninja alone, which I think is better for her, because nothing would've happened except for maybe making their friendship a little awkward
***I am in Tacky's Facebook picture. Yes, it's the picture where my boob looks like it's falling off my chest. Seeds needs to MAKE HER MOVE before things go back to what they were!!! And then they can bond over their love of music and traveling and whatnot.
***Glasses was hit on today during third period by Yellow when she was sitting next to him. He admitted that he doesn't go for sophomore girls though
***Lotion made a wise decision and is now coolly neutral.
***Thunder was sweet again today=] hmmmm
***AP US history nerd love? Koala and Air...pretty interesting...
***I haven't talked to Ponytail lately but I know that things have NOT gotten better=[

-New Predictions!-
***Fire's bash will have an awesome turnout.
***Seeds will finally admit her feelings to Tacky!! [JUST DO IT ALREADY GOSH]

-Random stuff-
***I think all my titles have been song lyrics except for one. I think.
***Fall Sports Awards was fun. Those brownies...my new lover?=]

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rainflower

we'll dance inside the song

Rainflower is: just back from Driver's Eddd=] Mmhmm. I think I'll actually enjoy it from now on instead of being BORED OUT OF MY MIND. I was passing notes today, and I wrote really big on my paper "Why is this so boring? Because he's so GAY!" and then after that I wrote "I really hope he doesn't collect this sheet" (because we were writing all our notes on the back of this weird crossword puzzle) and then right when I finished writing it, the teacher walked by to check all our papers. It was soooo great =]
Rainflower is also: such a trend setter! I think I started a blogging revolution! So many of my friends from school and work and stuff all got blogs! I'm cool like that :) Right before this I was looking at a friend's blog and I was reading it and it was so weird because I thought it was someone else's blog because she changed her layout to the same one the other person had. But they're still ubercute! =]
Rainflower is also also: short on new news today =[ I was too busy doing my homework from the weekend during my classes, so I didn't get to talk to sources or observe people. (So I included a bunch of stuff that seems like news but isn't to make it seem like I have more! Exactly what I do in AP US)

-Stuff from today-
***Heard that Tramp was acting spoiled again. (I'm kind of concerned with my sources because they have proven to be a little off before but if it's really wrong, just IM me or something. I need to know these things =])
***Bubbles&Sand seem to be back on track! Maybe a seat change is required in their sixth period class so they sit next to each other instead of being diagonal for better conversations. SO CUTE!!
***Poor, poor Ponytail. I'll keep you posted because this is such a sad situation. What I would do to give her a makeover...
***I don't think Waves knows what an OPINION is. Can this girl think for herself??? She's so nice but I want to hear what she thinks, not what everyone around her thinks.
***Ice&Mouse=never happen. Even if they would have skinny, tall, insanely smart kids, she's absolutely gorgeous and he resembles his code name. We used to think this was going to happen though during freshman year=P
***Thunder was nice to Rainflower today=] Umm basically I love Driver's Ed...??? Haha.
***Is Fire still alive? *worries*

-Predictions?-
***Tramp and Waves will meet and become BFFs because they complete each other.
***Strawberry will make her move on Ninja.
***Ponytail will be presented with the idea of a nightly shower.

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rainflower

i feel like a hero

Rainflower is: eating tiny Mandarin Oranges--they're sooo addicting! :) Seriously. Sometimes I eat them at Driver's Ed just so people can be like "OMG! I smell citrus! OMG!" (Some of the girls are the biggest ditzs ever. And get scared at the sound of a horn honking.)
Since there's nothing to update on today, I guess I'll use Sundays for some deep-introspective life evaluation crap. idk. It depends. It doesn't have anything to do with anyone so if you are in a gossip-hungry mood it really won't help.

Today's topic: Love and Friendship and Blame. Because isn't that what most people love asking others about? I mean, when you go see a counselor for an emotional problem, they always ask: "Do you have any boy problems? Do you have any girl problems? Is there anyone you would like to talk about?" I was in the eighth grade when I got sent down to the office for being apparently suicidal when I wrote "I'm so sick of it all" (I was as pissed as an eighth grader can get) in my school journal. Those were the exact questions that the principal asked me and that the social worker who I was forced to talk with instead of going to my last period computer class and making 3-D donuts in a CAD program asked me. It's so repetitive, but I guess it gets a lot out of people.
But I don't want to talk about them separately. I'm talking about them as a whole.
As girls, we're all waiting for a guy to come around and totally sweep us off our feet (with the exception of Ponytail. Sorry. I had to add that. =P) Some of us are patiently waiting, while some of us are creepily desperate.
You guys have all read about this guy I call Thunder. If he was to say something like "I'll be your boyfriend, but only if you stop being friends with so-and-so and dedicate odd weekday nights to me" I would probably bitch-slap him and be like "WTF? You ass!" and my opinion of him would go wayyyy down because I'm definitely not that desperate. Besides, there's this thing called Chicks before Dicks, Friends before Lovers. I guess that's always been my personal philosophy (Hakuna Matata =P) ever since I needed it.
That's where friends come in. If you had a boyfriend that was that demanding, what would you do about it? Think of it this way: you don't go through high school to meet your future husband. You go through it to meet your future bridesmaids. Your best friends for LIFE. Missing out on one boyfriend opportunity may seem bad, but not maintaining a close bond with your favorite people is worse.
Then we have guy friends. Some girls I know are afraid to have them, because they think that having them will prevent them from having a real boyfriend. I think that they're thinking of it totally wrong. Having guy friends actually prepares you for a real relationship, because you'll know how to talk to them and what NOT to bring up in a conversation. Plus, they can teach you about other girls' mistakes in past relationships. Other girls I know won't make friends with boys unless they see themselves as a couple sometime in the near future. I also think that that's kind of dumb. You shouldn't see guys as potential boyfriend material but rather just as...people.
Then comes blame. As human beings, it's only natural for us to put the blame on other people whenever we can. But one part of a strong friendship is that when there is a problem, understand that it's not all the other person's fault--each person has something they did wrong. Once you understand that, it'll help problems go away faster or not even let situations escalate into problems. But some people are ALWAYS blamed for problems. I know a girl who people get mad at just because the problem had something to do with her--even if she wasn't a part of it, she would still get the blame. And then there are others who aren't even part of a problem and take the blame anyways because they want their friends to stop fighting. It made me think of something my friend was saying in Chemistry: "Maybe I should just join Logue so the News Editors can dump the blame on me instead of each other!" I don't know. To each her own, I guess.

This is really long. My DBQs for APUSH are never this longgg!!
Haha. over&OUT
rainflower

(p.s. this isnt proofread yet. g2g to workkk)

i don't wanna miss a thing

(I'm gonna do this the Facebook way now.)
Rainflower is: going shopping with her little sister soon! This hasn't happened in such a long time that even the weird Canadian people over can't make me angry...
So yesterday after I came home from school (sadly, no strike) I was tired as heck and so I fell asleep on the couch at like...4 o'clock and when I woke up, it was this morning. There wasn't much to update yesterday though so today's post is extra short...I think.
Have you ever gotten the feeling where you just want to get away from it all for a bit? Where you don't even have to do with any of the drama at school, home, or just between your friends? I honestly hope that I'm not the only one. But things are looking better already and hopefully by the next week it'll be all cleared out.
To all of my friends: I know that this past week hasn't been the greatest. We're all going through something different, but if you ever need anyone to talk to, know that I'm always here and anything we talk about will NOT be posted on here or shared with other friends.

-Stuff from Friday!-
***If someone didn't ask you to help solve their problems, don't go ahead and do it for them. Because chances are they would rather do it themselves, and you might say something wrong.
***Apparently the couple brought up that day was Apple&Sand...? Bubbles&Sand are still cuter. And more likely to happen ;)
***Tacky joined the group "Cuddlers Anonymous" on Facebook. I'm scarred for life. I think of him cuddling and I taste puke. But Seeds is also in that group, so maybe...yaknow??
***Talked to Pumps and Sharpie during class. Pumps can't decide between Glasses and Monster because they're both so cute. This reminds me of that song "4 Mots Sur un Piano." Except it's in French. And in the song both guys are in love with the girl. Just kidding.
***Ponytail has reverted back to her OLD SELF?? NO MORE BRAS?
***Cookies is such a nice person at heart. Why is it that she always has to deal with so much crap?
***After math class, Ninja was seen laughing with Umbrella. Wow, he's popular with girls.
***Number of days until Rainflower gets to talk to Thunder again: 2!

-New predictions-
***Rainflower will talk to Eraser at some kind of social gathering. We have no classes together so we barely see each other!
***Ponytail's parents will be upset because of the fact that their daughter is a son.
***Tacky and Seeds...since they are already getting closer, something will happen between them at SYSO.

I used a lot of question marks today.
Comments would be lovely! (you can leave one even if you don't have Blogger/Gmail)
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rainflower

this time i'm not blind

-Current Mood: Pondering. Thinking. Running over some thoughts and some suspicions.
-Current Location: A few feet away from a treadmill. I like exercising :)
Today in itself was really stressful. From having school instead of striking to swim gym to lock downs to blowups to accusations, this was one of the worst Thursdays. Ever. But there were surprises along the way that were either sweet or just uplifting :)
I was thinking, and people have told me to be brutally honest on here, which I planned to be all along. But sooo many people (last night there were six) have contacted me about identities and code names but news spreads and warps way too fast, so I really don't think I can be as honest as I should be with all these people and their friends knowing who I'm talking about.
I'm not accusing anyone but like someone just said to me on IM a few seconds ago, last year I got in trouble for a secret that I know I had specifically told one person, but by the end of the day everyone was asking me about. And today one of the people I wrote about that I know I didn't tell her her code name asked me if I really thought she was like that. So I'm just going to change some of the names if/when I need to. That's it. I don't think it's necessary for anyone to know every person I talk about all the time, but sometimes, I'll need a friend to talk to about it so that's fine. Yeah.

-Stuff from today! Lots of new people with new news!-
***Got tipped off that Knees had many random PMS emotional swings during the day. Yogurt was keeping her cool during these and did not say anything back to her that might risk a friendship.
***Rainflower talked to Seagull at school today and it turns out that they're friends again and the problem they were having is over!
***Bubbles&Sand were both blushing when Apple brought up them as a potential couple. Props to Apple for the push :)
***Lotion is knowingly getting in the way of a few friendships...what are her real intentions? What side is she really on?
***Pumps was definitely talking to Monster today in a more-than-friendly way. I guess if last year's TurnAbout dance asking failure won't stop her, nothing will! Glasses was not seen at school. Bread was having an off-day and not talking to anyone.
***Tramp was nice today for the first time! I hope this lasts...if it's not broken, don't fix it.
***Number of days until Rainflower gets to talk to Thunder again: 4 (such a long time!!!)

-Some new predictions-
***Beans will NOT listen to the newest rumors he hears about his friends, because the old ones he shared with us were definitely bogus.
***Tacky will not txt Rainflower so many times each week but will instead find out that Seeds likes him. And do something about it, since they do see each other a few hours each week on Tuesday and Thursday nights [I think.]
***Ponytail will start wearing makeup.

Comments would be lovely. If you're not a stalker or trying to figure out who this is :) (you can comment anonymously too)
over&out
rainflower

p.s. please don't ask me about this blog in public if you know who I am!

how close is close enough?

-Current Mood: slightly irritated but nonetheless HAPPY. Details to come :)
-Current Location: in my happy place
Agh. I'm a little ticked because today someone said that the format I had for my blog was like something in Gossip Girls...? I wouldn't really know if it was similar or not because I have never read that book/series/magazine [w/e idk] before, but the thing is, this is the easiest way to sort all the things I have to say, so if you don't like it, don't read it. Haha :) Today during school I guess I got kind of angry because of a new problem involving...notebooks...but I've talked with some people and that's all figured out now. I hope :)
I sent the link for this page to a few of my friends today so here's a note to them: This is probably something I'll be keeping updated for fun. If you have problems with anything I write or want to know who some of these people are, find me on AIM (txting is fine too) My sn's on my Facebook profile and I'm usually online a lot. And there's nothing negative about you guys on here...why would I write crap about people who treat me nicely? This is what I'll do in the future instead of venting on people in public and landing in sticky situations.

-Stuff from today! Not much I guess-
***Rainflower is HAPPY with her life! Here's the story. You know how me and Altoids had a falling out a while ago because of some girlfriend madness? I guess I moved on today because someone new- let's call him Thunder- decided that I was worth his time and walked to a convenience store with me so I could buy gummi worms! I know this might seem kind of dumb, but trust me, this is something new for during the school year. Summer? Not so much. I guess I bounce back from problems quickly...?
***Shark and Locks might have someone interfering with their daily talks during seventh period, but they still like to talk with each other!
***I think though Ninja has chosen, he isn't exactly letting the others down easy. My heart goes out to those two. Because I know it's even worse when it's someone you like that lets you down. Trust me.
***Uh oh for Bubbles&Sand. Sand was definitely chatting up to Grouch today in his few minutes of free time. We'll need to do something about this!
***People need to understand and be more considerate of people when they're down or angry, and not just call them bitchy right away. I mean, who likes it when people don't pay attention to them? Who likes being forgotten? This applies to too many people including me so I didn't really use names.
***New couple? Bread eyeing Monster during third period. And today when they were stuck in a small room together for sectionals, Bread got the opportunity to talk with Monster for 40 minutes! (since the teacher was preoccupied with listening in on another sectional)
***We've discovered a problem with Fire and the postal service, which has lost a lot of information that needed to be passed on.

-New Predictions-
***Fire's bash will be a success!
***Rainflower and Thunder will get somewhere (I WISHHH)
***Ninja will apologize to Cookies for a mean comment.

Comments would be lovely.
over&out,
rainflower

free hugs if you're cute

-Current Mood: Mellowed out. There hasn't been much excitement in this life lately. I'll make it up by adding extra news today :)
-Location: On my fat ass. Duh.
This is going to be my first day of actual blogging/gossipfesting in the longest time! Eeek! I'm happy that I found this website. (Even though I knew about it for a few years *headdesk*) I'm ready for this.

-Stuff from the last week I guess-
***Seeds still definitely has a thing for Tacky. I mean, have you seen the way she stalks his Facebook? I heard from Cherub that she talks about him nonstop when he's not there and she's hanging out with her friends. Wow...
***Tacky, however, keeps trying to contact Rainflower which could be a problem, since Rainflower's got her heart set on someone else and is sick of Tacky's txts! Sorry to be a bitch, but she just does NOT want him. Ughhh.
***Ponytail seems to have realized she was a girl. Woah. It's so weird!
***Shark is talking a lot with Locks during her 7th period class. We'll see if this carries on until Turnabout. Not gonna lie, they're cuter together than their previous loves.
***Ninja has yet another admirer. Wow, three girls? I wonder who's gonna end up with him in the end especially since the new girl Strawberry doesn't seem to want to back down until she gets her man.
***Bubbles&Sand! Sooo cute. I hope this turns out for the best because I couldn't think of a cuter couple. They should just get together now because everyone EXCEPT FOR THEM knows that they like each other.
***Pumps still has a thing for Glasses, despite the age difference. Last year she found out they were a mistake, but she's still after his him. I have to admit, he's gorgeous. But I don't like him that way.
***Light and Beans? This has yet to develop but I'm hoping it'll work out positively because it would be so damn cute. Really.
***Teeth and Crimp have been kind of annoying the past few days, but I'm sensing that it'll clear out soon.

-Rainflower's Predictions-
***BIG problems at an upcoming event where Rainflower AND Tacky AND Seeds will be there. Better watch out...eek!
***Glasses will reject Pumps. For the second time.
***Cherub will continue to dream of the boy-from-lunch. Without results.
***Bubbles&Sand will get a BIG push from their friends :)

Comments would be lovely.
over&out,
rainflower

take it back to square one

So I guess after all this time, I still can't stop my need to write about life and all the crap it encompasses online.
But this time, I hope it'll be a little different. For starters, I'm only telling a select few who I am. Because only those people need to know. It's up to them whether they wanna tell other people or not, but I would much rather not have random people knowing who I am. Remember that.
All right.
To all of you guys, I will be rainflower. I know I go by many more different names, but for the sake of privacy, just call me rainflower. Yes, I'll be talking about anything that I think is worth talking about, including people. But instead of using their names, I'll use nicknames that I think suit their personality, their face, or their shoe size. Or something like that.
If you find out what your nickname is, keep it to yourself. I'm trusting you with it. If I trust you enough to tell you what other people's nicknames are, please don't break that trust. If you want to know who you are, I suggest you ask me. Because then we can talk about whether what I hear is true or not and stuff like that.
I know I'm doing this for the sake of blogging, but it would be spec-tac-u-lar if people actually read it =D
Comments would be lovely.
over&out,
rainflower