i feel like a hero

Rainflower is: eating tiny Mandarin Oranges--they're sooo addicting! :) Seriously. Sometimes I eat them at Driver's Ed just so people can be like "OMG! I smell citrus! OMG!" (Some of the girls are the biggest ditzs ever. And get scared at the sound of a horn honking.)
Since there's nothing to update on today, I guess I'll use Sundays for some deep-introspective life evaluation crap. idk. It depends. It doesn't have anything to do with anyone so if you are in a gossip-hungry mood it really won't help.

Today's topic: Love and Friendship and Blame. Because isn't that what most people love asking others about? I mean, when you go see a counselor for an emotional problem, they always ask: "Do you have any boy problems? Do you have any girl problems? Is there anyone you would like to talk about?" I was in the eighth grade when I got sent down to the office for being apparently suicidal when I wrote "I'm so sick of it all" (I was as pissed as an eighth grader can get) in my school journal. Those were the exact questions that the principal asked me and that the social worker who I was forced to talk with instead of going to my last period computer class and making 3-D donuts in a CAD program asked me. It's so repetitive, but I guess it gets a lot out of people.
But I don't want to talk about them separately. I'm talking about them as a whole.
As girls, we're all waiting for a guy to come around and totally sweep us off our feet (with the exception of Ponytail. Sorry. I had to add that. =P) Some of us are patiently waiting, while some of us are creepily desperate.
You guys have all read about this guy I call Thunder. If he was to say something like "I'll be your boyfriend, but only if you stop being friends with so-and-so and dedicate odd weekday nights to me" I would probably bitch-slap him and be like "WTF? You ass!" and my opinion of him would go wayyyy down because I'm definitely not that desperate. Besides, there's this thing called Chicks before Dicks, Friends before Lovers. I guess that's always been my personal philosophy (Hakuna Matata =P) ever since I needed it.
That's where friends come in. If you had a boyfriend that was that demanding, what would you do about it? Think of it this way: you don't go through high school to meet your future husband. You go through it to meet your future bridesmaids. Your best friends for LIFE. Missing out on one boyfriend opportunity may seem bad, but not maintaining a close bond with your favorite people is worse.
Then we have guy friends. Some girls I know are afraid to have them, because they think that having them will prevent them from having a real boyfriend. I think that they're thinking of it totally wrong. Having guy friends actually prepares you for a real relationship, because you'll know how to talk to them and what NOT to bring up in a conversation. Plus, they can teach you about other girls' mistakes in past relationships. Other girls I know won't make friends with boys unless they see themselves as a couple sometime in the near future. I also think that that's kind of dumb. You shouldn't see guys as potential boyfriend material but rather just as...people.
Then comes blame. As human beings, it's only natural for us to put the blame on other people whenever we can. But one part of a strong friendship is that when there is a problem, understand that it's not all the other person's fault--each person has something they did wrong. Once you understand that, it'll help problems go away faster or not even let situations escalate into problems. But some people are ALWAYS blamed for problems. I know a girl who people get mad at just because the problem had something to do with her--even if she wasn't a part of it, she would still get the blame. And then there are others who aren't even part of a problem and take the blame anyways because they want their friends to stop fighting. It made me think of something my friend was saying in Chemistry: "Maybe I should just join Logue so the News Editors can dump the blame on me instead of each other!" I don't know. To each her own, I guess.

This is really long. My DBQs for APUSH are never this longgg!!
Haha. over&OUT
rainflower

(p.s. this isnt proofread yet. g2g to workkk)